I find it hard to believe that I’m 20 years old. I mean I know I am, but most days I feel like I should still be waking up and going to school, doing homework at night and dealing with drama that goes along with it all. But that’s over and done with. Where did time go?Now I have to wake up five days a week 8-5 and chase little two year olds around at a daycare. That’s my full-time job. Don’t get me wrong, most days it’s really fun; kids really do say the darndest things. Not to mention they are adorable, even if they do stress me out easily.
I feel like I should have my own place already, and have a job that I was always hoping for, something in media, like photography or video editing. But then there is the circle I get stuck in, I don’t want to put more time and effort into school, but to get where I want to get in life, unfortunately, school comes round full circle and traps me. Stuck once again. When does it end? The circle I mean. I want what I see in my head, a home or apartment would suffice, my boyfriend here with me and just living. Right now I’m still at home, which I can’t complain about, working at a daycare and missing my boyfriend like crazy. It all seems unfair to me, but I feel like a lot is lately.
Sorry for venting on you guys, I just needed to say it.